Demi Lovato claims she was sexually assaulted and ‘killed’ by the dealer who gave her a dangerous cocktail of heroin and other drugs the night she had a virtually fatal overdose three years ago.
The singer “Heart Attack” remembers how she had to be forced to see what happened when she woke up in the hospital after the incident, and doctors asked her if she had slaughtered with permission.
“I remembered him lying on top of me, so I said ‘yes,'” Lovato said in her YouTube documentary, “Dancing with the Devil.”
However, she says she soon realized that due to her highly troubled condition, she was in no condition to agree to sex on the eve of the July tragedy.
“I only realized a month after my overdose, ‘Hey, you were not in a state of mind to make a decision,'” she recalls. “That kind of trauma doesn’t go away overnight.”
Lovato, 28, admits that she relapsed after her overdose.
“I wish I could have said last night that I ever touched heroin the night of my overdose, but it was not,” she says, explaining that she “wants to take back the power” from her drug dealer, which she did not do. . t name, after he allegedly assaulted her.
“I wanted to rewrite his choice to offend me,” she explains. ‘I wanted it to be my choice now, and he also had something I wanted, drugs. I finally got high. ”
As part of a wrong plan to ‘get the power back’ after a week of intense trauma, she even called the dealer who attacked her and told him, ‘I’m going to fuck you.’
Lovato says she was sorry because she realized she had reached the bottom in the wake of her relapse.
“I thought, ‘How did I pick up the same medicine that took me to the hospital?’ ”, She says. “I was ashamed of my decisions.”
Now she is sober from the drugs that brought her to the hospital, Lovato says in the documentary articles – and in a cover story for the March issue of Elle – she does not completely limit herself to marijuana or alcohol.
“I learned that I want to open the door even more when I close the door for things,” she says. “I know I’m done with the stuff that’s going to kill me … but I wish I could maybe get relief from weeds or something, right?”