Katherine Heigl reveals that she had therapy to get to know herself after she was ‘publicly ashamed’

Katherine Heigl revealed that therapy and meditation helped her ‘get acquainted’ [herself]’after enduring a’ public scan ‘and being described as’ difficult’.

The former Grey’s Anatomy star left Hollywood in 2010 for a rural life in Utah, amid a harsh chorus of accusations that she was ‘hard to work with’ and ‘ungrateful’ for her success on screen, largely too thanks to awkwardly worded interviews.

And the actress (42) has now revealed that amid her retreat from the spotlight more than a decade ago, she went on a self-help journey that also includes the use of crystals, reiki and acupuncture – everything she still does today still practicing. .

Regarding the big shift in her public image, she told The Telegraph’s magazine Stella: ‘It was this giant snowball effect. The more I was aware of it, the scarier I was, and the more I would say something stupid.

“It was this vicious cycle. It was a public disgrace. Even a little public bullying. And I took it really, really personally. It confused me about my own worth because I put all my worth in other people’s opinions and those opinions suddenly changed. ‘

A few years after she moved to Utah, where she lives with her musician husband Josh Kelley and their three children – daughters Naleigh (12) and Adelaide (eight), as well as four-year-old son Joshua – it appears that Katherine has no regrets.

She said: ‘Getting out of the way for a while was very healing. It was a great time to just find out for myself. I’m not sure why I’ve been hanging out for so long not knowing who I am … I’m not a guru, I still stop regularly, but at least try it now, while I did not even know how to to do. ‘

Thanks to the COVID-19 pandemic. the actress has spent much of the past year at home with her family on their farm, where they have five dogs, three cats, horses, chickens, goats, donkeys and pigs.

And although she has a number of projects in the near future, including the Firefly Lane series and the thriller Fear Of Rain, she has privately enjoyed a simple life on her rural farm with her family.

One of the benefits is the man, Josh, whom she married in 2007, and who calls Katherine a ‘marriage-saving’ shack, where they regularly watch TV together if they want to enjoy time as a couple.

The star has previously backfired on the turmoil of her career, claiming she is ‘ungrateful’ and ‘difficult’, and has insisted she was falsely portrayed as ‘unprofessional’ by people who ‘do not like her opinions’.

Her once successful film and TV career has long been overshadowed by reports of her behavior, which has left her suffering from such bad anxiety that she has reached a point where she ‘felt she would rather be dead’.

However, Heigl is adamant in her allegations that any allegations about her bad behavior came as a result of misunderstandings, and told the Washington Post: “I may have said a few things you do not like, but then it increased to “she’s ‘ungrateful,’ then it increased to ‘she’s difficult,’ and it increased to ‘she’s unprofessional.’

What is your definition of difficult? Someone with an opinion you do not like? Now I’m 42 and that makes me angry, ‘she added.

Throughout her career, Heigl has faced controversy after controversy – beginning in the mid-1990s with small film roles – many of which were guided by comments she made herself.

While she played the role of dr. Playing Izzie Stephens in the hit ABC series Grey’s Anatomy, the actress unleashed indignation when she refused to host an Emmy Award in 2008, claiming she did not ‘give the material to justify a nomination’ ‘.

In 2009, during an appearance on David Letterman, she complained to the producers of the show for making the cast work for 17 hours and calling them ‘cruel and mean’.

“Our first day back was Wednesday and it was – I will keep saying it because I hope it embarrasses them – a 17-hour day that I think is cruel and mean,” she said.

Heigl left the program the following year to fulfill films, but after achieving some big hits with comedies such as Knocked Up, which she considered ‘a bit sexist’, and 27 Dresses, she excelled on other projects. the screen, if not completely flopped, at the counter.

She has also struggled to escape her negative reputation – which has even been hailed in some forums as ‘the most hated actress in Hollywood’ – and she admits that the criticism has caused her to disappear more and more.

“The more I said I’m sorry, the more they wanted it,” she explained. “The more scared and scared I was of doing something wrong, the more I came down as if I was really doing something terribly wrong.”

Initially, the rumors and gossip about Heigl ‘difficult’ to work with did not affect her career, and the actress noted that even the ‘most horrible, most difficult, most horrible’ people can keep a job if they continue to ‘earn money’. ‘- which she has been for a while.

“You may be the scariest, most difficult, scariest person on the planet, but if you make money for them, they will keep hiring you,” Heigl said.

“I knew that whatever they felt I was doing was so terrible, they would overlook it if I made money for them – but then my films did not make that much money.”

When her successful career on screen turned into a series of failures and flops, Heigl reached breaking point and struggled to cope with the increasing pressure to secure a box office hit, along with the lasting negative labels that followed her from job to job. .

In 2015, her anxiety became so extreme that she felt she ‘would rather be dead’ – and she asked her family to help her seek professional help to deal with her mental health issues, revealing that she was prescribed Zoloft, which is, start taking is used to treat depression, panic attacks, obsessive compulsive disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder and social anxiety disorder.

‘I asked my mother and my husband to look for me somewhere to help me, because I felt I would rather be dead. I did not realize how much anxiety I was living with until I became so ill that I really had to go and seek help. You can do a lot of inner soul work, but I’m a big fan of Zoloft, ‘said Heigl.

Her husband Josh said that if Heigl had said the things she said then, she would have been considered a ‘hero’ in the current climate.

‘I can not imagine what all the pressure has done her over the years, dealing with celebrities, with people saying things about her that are not true. “It will be difficult for anyone to process it, especially if it is unfair and a lot of it is negative,” he said.

She even had another lawyer in her 27-year-old co-star James Marsden, who had nothing but glowing things to say about her.

“She has a very strong belief and strong opinions about certain things, and does not let them know if she feels that she has been wronged in any way. I’ve always seen it as just a strong character, ‘Marsden said.

‘I can see how it can become difficult or ungrateful, or whatever. But if you know Katie, it’s simply because she has the courage to stand behind something she believes, ‘he added.

Marsden continues: ‘One element of Katie that I always thought would define her was her drive. I never thought she’s going to be the one who’s lazy. She’s not going to sit there. She’s going to take control and do it her way. ‘