Less than ten minutes to Billie Eilish’s new Apple TV + documentary The world is a bit hazy, the camera focuses on a familiar scene: a teenager sitting cross-legged on a bed and flipping through a journal, his pages filled with thoughts and sketches that cause blushing.
Then comes something that reminds you that looks can be misleading, because what is revealed on the pages is the opposite of ordinary – these are the visionary blueprints for a career that will soon explode into a global superstar. “This is what I want the album to be called, Where are we going when we all fall asleep?Explains Eilish as she points to the words for what will be the title of her big debut, recorded in that very room at her parent’s Highland Park home.
She flips to another page with a song that comes to life with monsters hiding under a bed. This will be the inspiration for ‘Bury a Friend’, a video that has been viewed 396 million times on YouTube. “In the future, I’m going to do things with wings,” she continues. Mission accomplished in “All the good girls go to hell.” “And I also want to do something where I drink black liquid and my eyes turn black and I start bleeding from my eyes.”
She also does this in the video for ‘When the Party’s Over’, and the next series in the document shows her blocking the scene with her mother in their backyard while her father picks up a dog poop. “When the Party’s Over” was watched 669 million times and she performed the track live at the Grammy Awards in 2020, where she swept the main categories and walked away with five trophies, including a record, song and album of the year .
Grammy Night is well covered on the tail end of the RJ Cutler-directed documentary and by the time it comes, it’s hard not to think about how Eilish’s early sketches and bold vision helped bring it to life. Actually, there is a lot to think about during the two hours and twenty minutes of The world is a bit hazy, a film filled with revelations about the now 19-year-old star while navigating his fame and all the intricacies that go along, a romantic relationship that has been kept private until now, and even the (gasp!) Los Angeles DMV. Below is a summary of several highlights before the February 26 recording on Apple TV + and in certain theaters.
A mystery love interest Come up
In last month Vanity Fair, Eilish revealed that the doctor had a glimpse of a romantic relationship she never intended to discuss. “It’s been a big part of my life,” she told the magazine. “And no one knew it. It was this main thing that controlled my life.” The relationship does not take control of the documentary, but the ups and downs of her mystery boyfriend are revealed in emotional detail.
The first look of her boyfriend, a man she only refers to Q (reports Brandon Adams) Rolling clip), arrives at a roller coaster during her birthday party. The couple is seen holding hands and a few scenes later Eilish tells him that she fell for him. “You’re so good. I love you,” she says. “I am in love with you.” Q later supported her during the release party for her debut album, Where are we going when we all fall asleep? and then, as the doctor evacuates, there is friction because he sometimes does not show up for big events like a party thrown by her label Interscope at Coachella. On another occasion she finds out that he is receiving medical care in the emergency room after hitting a wall. “Q is so self-destructive, it’s scary,” she says, adding that attempts are being made to allow him therapy.
Goodbye my love
“I just wasn’t happy,” Eilish says later, explaining why she and Q end up calling it quits. “I did not want the same things he wanted and I do not think it is fair to him. I do not think you should be in a relationship that is very excited about things that the other person can not care less. I did not ‘think it was fair to him.’ She went on to say that he did not have enough love for himself so that he could not give anything to her. ‘I do love him, which made it harder “Eilish also realized how much life she was missing, because she spent so much time worrying about him.” I do not want to fix him. I can not fix him. I tried. I can no longer do that. I’m not happy. He’s gone. “And then she went to a performance in New York, during which she cried as she sang the lyrics,” I love you, but I do not want to. “
No time to belt
Eilish and O’Connell have completed a deadline to record the James Bond theme song “No Time to Die” by laying the track on a tour bus. Fans have gone wild in part because it features Eilish in a rare moment with lyrics. “Why belt people?” she asked. “It sounds awful. I’m being ridiculed. The internet is going to be bad if I do that … if I wear my seat belt.” But she did it and now the song has been nominated for a Grammy Award and it becomes her first number 1 in the UK
Do not self-harm
Eilish was open about her history of carving and how she used it to cope during difficult spots in her life. She reads a section of her journal to illustrate her state of mind around a time when she was really bad. “This blade can do so much, but how deep do I go? Do I go until the pain is too much until my skin does not stop bleeding and I am too sore to touch?” she reads before adding that razors were hidden in the house at 14 or 15 and plasters covering her wrists. “I made myself bleed because I thought I deserved it.”
A list of injuries
The singer opens up more about the many injuries she has encountered in her career. Because she was a dancer – the footage of her dance classes and performances is awesome – she burst a growth plate on her hip and has since dealt with shin splints and multiple sprained ankles. The documentary also shines a spotlight on how she managed Tourette Syndrome, something she has discussed before. To stay healthy, Eilish talks about self-care and he is received massage therapy in one scene.
Off She’s Driver’s License
While the scene of Eilish sitting on her bed and examining her journal will be familiar to so many people, the scene of her father standing in the driveway will be in her matte black Dodge Challenger (a gift from her label). for the first time alone with a new driving license. Patrick O’Connell puts on some driving lessons and then stops after she goes to take stock of the cycle. It is one of the most poignant and silent deepest moments of the documentary. “Her childhood went somewhere long ago,” he says. “Everyone feels that way when you get a license. You have to see how your life changes. Then we live in denial, as always … because you can not think too hard about it, otherwise you do not allow her. Do something I mean, I drank something and choked on it completely. It’s remarkable that we stay alive at all. We are this fine system. It’s remarkable and you have to have faith, lead your best life and then you have to live in denial. “Because what else?”
Coachella, the nightmare
Prior to her debut performance in Coachella in 2019, Eilish says she had a dream – but not like the one that inspired the hit song “Everything I Wanted”. On the contrary, really. “I had a dream that Coachella was awful and the worst thing ever, and it ruined my career.” On the contrary, really.
Starry Night With Katy Perry and Orlando Bloom
During Coachella weekend, she also gets stuck with Katy Perry introducing her fiancé. The world knows him as Orlando Bloom, but Eilish does not immediately place his face. Meanwhile, Perry, a veteran of the world theater, offers an ear to Eilish on how to navigate fame. “I wanted to say it’s going to be wild for ten years. If you ever want to talk … because it’s a weird ride.”
Moments later, Eilish is explained that Perry’s fiancé is the movie star that Will Turner is in. Pirates of the Caribbean franchise. “No, bring him back,” Eilish said. “I want to meet him again. He kissed me on the cheek! I did not know it was him. I thought it was a guy who met Katy Perry.”
It’s an amusing scene that also contains a brutal reference to Bloom’s nude paddleboarding photos, while her brother Finneas O’Connell jokes about the incident in 2016. Eilish gets her wish moments later when she runs into Bloom and he meets her give a big hug. “This is the universe that embraces you. I give you so much love now,” he tells Eilish as she says her 9-year-old would have chased herself out. “Oh my lord, I love you.”
Post-Coachella praise from parents
Eilish felt like she ‘bombed the shit out of’ her performance of the track ‘All the Good Girls Go to Hell’ during her Coachella outing. She admits it to the family after the show, but her mother reassures her that it was not the way the audience adopted it. “I wish you could feel what we feel. People were just like, ‘She’s a superstar,'” her mother says as she embraces her. “People loved it so much and that’s what you can do when everything around you is going down.”
Technical issues delayed the start of the program and it was not clear if the screens would even work. “Who cares,” her father says, joining her mother to give another dose of reassurance that the program is a hit. But even though she was praised for her actions, things in her personal life were not perfect. “Where are you? Can you come here?” Eilish asks Q when he calls her after he did not show up to meet her. “What do you mean, try?” Hello? ‘The conversation ends with Eilish throwing the phone down and breaking down in tears.
Incoming text by Justin Bieber
After the hug seen at Coachella around the world, Bieber sent a text message to Eilish that she read to her family. “Your love for me has touched my heart. You are so special, not for what you can do, but for who you are – remember that. I am so impressed by your aura and presence. You carry a heavy calling. You is an idol for so many and I’m excited to see you thrive. Thank you for tonight. It meant as much to me as it did to you. It feels like I sang ‘One Time’ yesterday. It flew by in a flash. I’m 25. Embrace it all, Billie. You’re great, but not bigger than anyone. “The moving text makes O’Connell say,” You have to be friends with him. Seriously. Let’s talk about people you appreciate. People who value you. ‘
A family of believers
The Coachella encounter and the subsequent text message are placed in context when Eilish’s mother remembers how much she loved him when he grew up and how the whole family joined in the worship. “She was in love and desperately in love with Justin Bieber. The whole family went to see Believe or Never say never on Christmas Day. We all thought he was great. ‘
Bieber’s congratulations
After playing out at the 2020 Grammy Awards, Eilish was still behind the scenes at Staples Center when Justin Bieber FaceTimes congratulated her. O’Connell is quickly getting dressed in a wardrobe and is pantsless when Eilish calls him to hear Bieber on the other side. “Was it great? How did it feel?” he asks. “I am so proud of you.” The congratulations of her one-time girlfriend and confidant are an exclamation point on a monumental night. “It’s almost as exciting as winning all the Grammys.”