Billie Eilish was rarely seen during the pandemic while spending time at home on upcoming projects and raising her ten-month-old pit bull, Shark. But when the 19-year-old singer walks out in October to meet her brother for a day at the beach, the singer is forced to take center stage in the online conversations, making Eilish both ashamed and praised for her appearance.
‘There’s this picture of me running like a 110 degree day in a tank from my car to my brother’s front door. And people were like, ‘Damn, Billie got fat!’ She said Vanity Fair during the latest of her video interviews with the magazine. And I’m like, ‘No, that’s what I look like, you’ve never seen it before! ”
Now, on the cover of Vanity FairIn the March 2021 issue, Eilish further addresses the moment and the concerns it caused for her family.
‘I think the people around me were more worried about it than I was, because the reason I cut myself was because of my body. To be honest with you, I only started wearing baggy clothes because of my body, ”she said of her distinctive oversized shirts and shorts. ‘However, I was really very happy to be in this place in my life, because if it had happened three years ago, when I was in the middle of my awful body relationship – or a ton, five years of dancing? I did not really eat. I was starving myself. ‘
Eilish also remembers taking a ‘pill’ in the hope that it would help her lose weight. ‘It just made me pee in bed – when I was 12. It’s just crazy, ”she said. And while she points out she’s been in a better place, Eilish conceded that it’s not easy to see others’ opinions on the internet.
‘I thought I would be the only one who would deal with my hatred for my body, but I think the internet hates my body too. It’s great, ‘she said before concluding,’ The internet hates women. ‘
Among the many people – fans and co-celebrities – who are defending Eilish against the vitriol was actress Kat Dennings, who tweeted to say that the teenager is ‘beautiful and normal’. Dennings spoke to me later Entertainment tonight about what motivated her to talk. “Any woman in the spotlight is already under tremendous pressure and the internet is rude and terrible, and I hate it,” she said.
The pressure was addressed by Eilish herself in a short film released on YouTube after her tour, which began in March, was canceled due to the coronavirus.
‘Even though you’ve never seen my body, you still judge it and judge me for it. Why? You make assumptions about people based on their size. We decide who they are. We decide what they are worth, ”says Eilish in the video. “If I wear more, if I wear less, then who decides what it does for me? What does this mean? Is my value based solely on your perception? Or is your opinion of me not my responsibility? ‘
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